Success in Overcoming PTSD and Bad Memories by the Author Who Overcame Anxiety

Tired of being unhappy,
Is everything energy sapping?
Would you like to move forward
But you keep looking back
With regret and pain,
And revisiting
Unhappy memories
Again and again?

I want you to see that this is contradictory.
Why would you revisit bad memories
Instead of happy ones?
Why not live them once and move on?

I know the answer but I want you to see
That your mental replays are contradictory.
Living life in the past tense
Doesn't make any sense.

You have a good memory for the bad.
The birds are singing but you are tearful
Cause the past make you sad.
People around you are cheerful
But unfinished business makes you mad.

I want you to see
It's very contradictory.
You want to forget the past,
But remember it compulsively.

There are restorative processes
That can come into play,
Like how a good night's rest sweeps
Trivial memories away.
You wake up fresh and bright
And forget what happened yesterday.

Why are these refreshing processes
Not working on what you would like to forget?

It is because these memories have not been healed
So they can't be swept out.
They house the pain.
And are still crying out
For the right kind of attention.

You look at them with resentment
But until they are looked at with love
They won't give you contentment.

It's unanimous:
Your negative emotions want to be resolved,
And you want the bad memories dissolved.
Let's now look at why your dilemma is not being solved.

Though your body wants to leave the past behind
And so does your mind,
Something is blocking the resolution's unfoldment
And it is something called resentment.

Each memory is not of just of a past scene.
It houses a story and a meaning.
It tells of a story of betrayal or cruelty,
violence, injustice, neglect, being treated unlovingly,
Or something you're not yet ready to see.


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